it's time..

boo. boo me..

i haven't been updating on myself regularly.. hai.. well. it's been so long..

the day TF and I know each other was on 17june 2005. LOL! was amazing that I know the date cos i keep my own written diary and that night was the trumpet chalet night. yup. and that's where and when we know each other. becasuse of one stick. LOL! =X anyway, that day was significant to me, because its the day i know my true friend, the day more colours came to my life. this year is the third year we've known each other and i'm really glad and shocked that we managed to be such close friends(till the extend most people just think that we are together but WE'RE JUST NOT! -.-") for so long.. however, I was telling TF on 17june this year, that it's exactly 3 years we've known each other.. 3 solid years. =) and guess what TF said that warmed my heart.. Relationship of friends don't count by years, it counts by the heart. oh gosh.. melt right? LOL!! but well. it's so true! =D

was chatting with Angeline two days ago when she said she want to look for a bunch of girlfriends and i actually told her i want to look for a bunch of boyfriends. LOL! i'm like so lack of one. hahha . and she said " why do you need to look for a bunch of boyfriends when you already have one awesome TF?" LOL! so true!! TF is AWESOME! LOL!! =)

Well. I need to remind myself again that I need to pick back my motivation to work. it seems that i've lost the motivation to work. or is it because of some other reasons? but anyway, i need to keep fit, keep myself healthy and strong.. i need to take care of myself, beacuse i'm only with me. i was thinking back the other day. when my staff hurt themselves, i make sure they stop whatever they are doing and attend to their injury/wound first, be it washing of the wound and applying medication, or rubbing the swell or whatever. But when such things happens to myself, i will just brush it off and don't bother! -.-" when something happens to my staff, I'll try to make sure I know about it and that I'm there to help them. But when something happens to myself, I'll try my best not to let them know there and then. that's me. hai.. of course i'm talking about my regular staffs and not those one off kind. talking about that, one girl whom i employed once only, actually smsed me and wants to borrow money from me! i was like WTH!! and worst thing is she straight away inluded her account number in the sms.. crazy right! i can't be bothered to reply. even intending to ask TF to help me settle her. LOL! whatever. anyway he doesn't even know about it yet cos i have not had the chance to tell him... and and and i'm getting my new phone tmr!!!!! =D thanks to ...... =X cannot say. haha. later he in trouble. LOL!!! weeeeee....~~ =D i'm so happy!! like finally.. LOL!! N95 8gb.. woohoo~!=P

the flight...

haven't been updating for quite some time already. lucky someone did not come help me to clear the cob webs.. -.-"

last week was event for the Hope Church Oasis Youth Camp 2008. saw quite a few familiar faces like Dawn Quek from HIHS (MB), Lim Yi You from OLN. LOL! and some others la whom i forgot names and stuffs. =X. ya. was kinda surprised to see them though. LOL! yea.. event over, den was setup for FRF Family Day. wasn't as bad as what everyone thought was la. ya. went through quite smoothly except for some minor hiccups here and there and problems the typical singaporeans kiasu, cheapskate and demanding attitudes. LOL!! things are already given to them free and they still ask for more. think what?! PEPSI ar?! -.-" dumbass... stupid f***... (toooooottttt...) LOL!!

TF has been volunteering himself to work since last week and I'm happy. Because he helps to motivate me to work somehow and he brings fun to my work. rather than sulking my day away. ya. and He's the only one who can change my whole day's attitude to just HAPPY! LOL! even the way i treat people also different. LOL! man.. how to find another! not the mention the funny moments and nonsense he gave. LOL! the conversation with weizhen which she later on told me what he said. LOL! i laughed totally hilariously! LOL! but I really thank him man.. he saved me many times for work cos he agreed to help work when i'm like very short of staff. ya.. He's really someone I treasure a LOT!!! =D

Went with my all time favorite girl to the Singapore Flyer.. gave her a surprise for that. wahaha.. I guess she loved it. =) after that went for dinner at billy bombers, den went to Scarlet City for Karaoke. too bad we did not take any pics at Scarlet..=( but well, shall not say more.. let some pictures speak for me.. For more pictures, please go to my new multiply website which i'm still working on.. http://www.emmeliney.multiply.com/ ..

emmo! =D

emmo and biling! =D

my favorite photo! =)

that's all folks......

i've got too much to say that i can't remember what i exactly want to say...

let your soul take you to where you want to be..

relationship of friends don't count by years but by the heart..=)

it's MAJORITY vs MINORITY! LOL!!

Little girl - I've decided to dedicate this whole entry specially for you. enjoy reading. =)

FYI, it's not minority. people are just being kind and giving face to him to be nice. At the back, MAJORITY dislikes you.. and like my dad, he says the most important is that he must approve. haha.. and FYI, he doesn't approve of you! LOL! and my other relatives, nobody approves also.. they are all unsupportive. hahah.. she's really too naive. HOR JIABAO! LOL!!! you know what i'm talking about cos you're also in the PICTURE. ahha.. she really dumb right! a little girl won't know what is happening, when can help, when can't help. a little girl would be so niave to believe everything.. i love you DARLING!!! my dearest... jiabao... LOL!! c'mon! bang me more la.. you won't win la i tell you. very simple.. because YOU ARE NOT IN THE PICTURE! oh and FYI again, some friends don't approve also! haha.. shocking right! told you. wake up la lil' girl.. not that I want to win. but you're just fighting against the wrong person. you won't get through. lets have a bet. see 10 years down the road will you still be in the pencil mark, worst still, not even in his contact list. hahhaha... JIABAO!! agree??? LOL!!! i know you'll raise both hands and legs up right! LOL! Jessie will do so too! and Derick.! and TF! LOL! and many more! haha..

anyway, not i want to brag. I never thought that I was mature, it is everybody else who is saying that I'm mature then I slowly realised that I somehow really am, for a 19 year old girl. Not me going around to announce that I am mature, at least better than someone, who is young yet ACT mature. In dressing, in appearance. so dumb la. if you're 16, be 16 and dress like one. I'm 19, but i'm forced not to be 19. its a different issue, at least i still dress like a 19, or younger even sometimes, but i just look older. not old hag. everyone will become an old hag one day. you too lil' girl. haha just a younger HAG now.. LOL! And I am not totally mature, just have a mature look, thinking and way of doing things, but at certain times, I still am the 19 year old Teen-going-adult.

Its kinda wasting my time when i had to play this kinda stupid game with a little girl, but i'm just trying to let her wake up from her dream paradise and come to her senses, at the same time, let her understand what is going on. Being a girlfriend, makes no rights to step into the family to speak anything, unless you are in the family long enough to know, see and hear the things that are happening. even 2 years will not be enough. lets see how long more you'll have. perhaps even when it comes to the wedding day, it's only the few giving face friends and her little friends, no relatives??? hahhaha.. whatever. just wake up your freaking idea la.

joke..

haha.. da ren bu qi siao ren guo. i think that little girl will one day wake up to her senses so i shall not say more. because i know childish people who are so foolish will just keep arguing all the way den end up crying or throwing tantrums. LOL!. anyway i was so shocked of the several quarrels they had. it's really so so so childish and immature. so PUPPY LOVE kinda relationship. she totally have no idea of what's happening at time when he says " i go sleep le" but in fact is go somewhere else? LOL! whatever. wake up babe. and oh did i said babe? ya babe lo. LOL! joanne is still the better candidate. haha.. she's best.. like he likes most. haha..


Congrats to kiat!! he's discharged lo!! wees!! =D really glad for him.. shall visit him in his hiouse le. haahaa..

grandmother ain't that lucky still.. currently down from the fever. hopefully it'll just be like that.. get well soon granymother... =)

the dog..

haha.. i find things are so interesting. when one little girl tries to say things behind my back thinking i will not know about it. grow up girl. you're just too naive. and look who will bow down like a DOG when the time comes.. seems like you are the good DOG that's wagging your tail happily at the mercy of your OWNER huh? shut up you freaking dorg! you are added in the picture in pencil for less than even 2 years. you can easily be erased off just with an eraser. and you don't even know when are the other part of the picture being drawn for the past 10 over years. moreover if there are any parts of the drawing that is being covered up. so will you just shut up?! you have no right to talk you dorg! what do you mean you cannot bear with? what right do you have? small kid! let's see who owes who more alright! go and think about it. things you said are just what you saw. cling onto your darling first before he runs away man... you'll never know what's going on behind you! haha.. stupid fool!!


friends, don't blame me. i never wanted to make the above known till i know about something recently. haha. if you want to know, you can ask me privately and personally and i will tell you what is going on. of course not everybody i will tell la. its just selective people. that's why i', careful with my words as well. =) dumbASS!

kiat had his trachea out already!! yay! and he should be able to be discharged by tomorrow or latest monday. =) so happy for him. and his sister is planning a bbq in july for him too! =) we're all just really too glad for him la. =)

grandmother isn't that lucky.. she might even be staying in the hospital longer than kiat does. her fever ain't doing good. this morning she hit 39 plus, just now when i went to visit her around 8.45pm, her temperature was 37.8 den around 10.15 her temperature was 38. i was sitting by her side all the while, except for about haolf hour i was at kiat's ward visiting him. ya. besides that i was all the while with grandmother.. the family who came to visit the patient next to grandmother's bed stayed till quite late as well. the father actually asked me if the patient was my mother..-.-" AM I THAT OLD?!?!?!?! argh!!!! when i told him she is my grandmother, he somehow was shocked and i could even see that in his face. grrr!! i feel like pounding on him. LOL!!! =XX

like finally... but..

the day i've been waiting... it finally came.. but somehow...... i don't know.. mixed up feelings again..but no matter what. I WILL NOT PAY! YOU BOTH JUST GO FIND YOUR OWN WAY OUT TO PAY THE FREAKING BILL!

power supply came to cut off the electricity and water today. but somehow they managed to get the electricity back, but water was out, not tally but quite.. somehow like at the wrong time. when i hadn't washed my clothes.. -.-" and now the time has comed, i don't know who to go to for help. knowing i have many people who opened their doors to help me but now that it happened, i really totally don't know who to go to..

Grandmother's better! fever out again.. hopefully for long.. and hopefully she can be discharged soon... Kiat can talk! not much la. cos tiring for him.. yea.. he can say "Hi!", "Hello" and smile when he hears himself talk. heehee.. so cute. haha.. glad he's really getting more and mroe well each day.. by friday he should be able to have his trachea out for good and maybe by the weekends or early next week he'll be discharged!! woots! less than a MONTH!!!

"Kiat.. be positive okay! jia you! =D"

TF failed his TP... =( another round on 5th August.. hopefully this time he can pass.. at least my birthday i got driver... =XX LOL!

what the !!!!!!!

i feel even more frustrated today. like freak! you will tell me " what the!", "hur!", "this is too much", when i tell you what is happening. YET YOU ARE WITH THEM WHEN YOU ARE BACK! like now i say what the! i rather I'm not sleeping at home today instead of yesterday. like f***.. to think you were the reason that held me back from moving out. Now i really want to consider should i listen to everyone else's advice and my own will to move out. i really had enough. i think I've flooded enough tears in my poor room. perhaps.. it should be the way..

Kiat is much and much better each day i visit him - almost every other day unless I'm working night shift.. yea.. more and more tubes out of him.. which is just a great thing!! =D I'm very happy for him.. he's really recovering well everyday. and its so nice of him to ask his sister and dad to send me home.. though i was like damn paiseh.. but his sister insisted also so i can't say no too. chat a lot in the car during the journey back home. about work, him, studies and blah blah blah...

Grandmother's condition is still like a yo-yo.. *sighs* I'm really damn messed up with my feelings.. it's like.. when i visit grandmother, i feel really down and afraid.. when i visit kiat, i feel very happy for him.. duhs..

A colleague of mine - Paul Kan, has resigned. It was really shocking though i knew about it long ago and I know the reason. He's really a talent and nice person. It's really a waste. But it's better for him rather than staying on unhappily. The another shocking thing is, his dad passed away this afternoon cos of cancer. Though they didn't expected him to leave them so soon but he eventually did... My condolences to Paul but sorry Paul.. I can't make it to the wake for superstitious reason. I'm sorry. I'm visiting the hospital frequently, especially its my grandmother. I would not want to take the risk. Really sorry about it bro. I know you'll understand, Mr Tarzan..

"a million love songs later........"

A Million Love Songs...

Put your head against my life
What do you hear
A million words just trying to make
The love song of the year
Close your eyes but don't forget
What you have heard
A man who's trying to say three words
The words that make me scared

A million love songs later
And here I am trying to tell you that I care
A million love songs later and here I am
A million love songs later here I am

Looking to the future now
This is what I see
A million chances pass me by
A million chances to hold you
Take me back, take me back
To where I used to be
To hide away from all my truth
Through the light I see

A million love songs later
And here I am trying to tell you that I care
A million love songs later and here I am
A million love songs later here I am
A million love songs later here I am

sha lalalala... *clap clap clap*

don't bother about the title. it's just some rubbish..

I took leave today to go hospital again. . really apologise to my colleague cos if not for my grandmother, i wouldn't have asked for leave. didn't know the other colleague would MC.

well..

Grandmother is better today again. =) i'm really so glad to know that.. so so much better.. her fever has subsided alot. =)

Kiat is also feeling much better today. =) Really alot of nonsenses.. LOL!

I'm really so happy that both of them are recovering.. Thank god for blessing them, and cotinue to bless them please. =)

Just now left at 7.30pm, went YCK station to meet TF to pass him the magic gloves(quoted by TF). LOL! den went to his house cos he wanted to changed clothes before going out for dinner. LOL! leaving that time his brother just nice also going eat with his gf so TF say go together, so four of us went to chomp chomp for dinner - of course, his brother drove us there. haha.. had Hokkien Mee and Black Carrot Cake and also the "Jug" of Sugarcane Juice. =) den his brother drove me back after that. yea..

Buberry's designs are really nice eh.. =XXX gosh.. it's a branded stuff!! @_@ argh....

you're back.. like finally.. Can I make you not go back there anymore??? I really hope you rather stay in Singapore than go back there. I'll find you a better job with stable pay and we still can afford to feed all of us together, rather than you stay there.. please.. Stay here will you??