finally!!!

yahoo~~!!

It's the weekends!!

It's my kelong trip tmr!!! =D

I can't wait!!!!!!

my weak point

i just don't know how to lick boots...

unbearable...

monday night i had the most unbearable gastric pain that i had to go to the hospital. I was crying. Damn. Went to hospital at about 10.15pm and reached home only at 1am. Doctor arranged for an appointment with the gastroenterology department. And they called me yesterday afternoon and gave me my appointment date. Wonderful! 31st december. Oh gosh and i have to work on that day!! It's countdown party man! And while in between waiting for my appointment day, doctor gave me medication for 3 full weeks. Oh man! I see the medicine i nearly faint xia. Goodness! It's so much!!

I guess I really have to take care of this tiny thing called gastric. -.-" it really can kill me.. I nearly died from bearing the pain. Luckily dad is back and he accompanied me to hospital. Otherwise I don't know what I'll do or who I'll call man.. *sighs*

I've not been having a good 'end of the year' this time.. everything is so wrong..

Can you remember what you did or ate 2 weeks ago when the thing is not significant to you? crazy... Some people tried to find fault with me for a function which happened 2 weeks ago almost 3 weeks and wants an answer. like so stupid. anyway it's not my fault its her fault! so c'mon wake up! If you really dislike me and want to pick on me, just come to me straight! don't go one big round. And don't you have a mouth to convey messages yourself? or and you sure have that fast typing fingers to send a nasty e-mail with bombastic words to bomb me so why don't you do it? oh.. maybe you're guilty huh. but i don't think you'll be because to you, the whole world is wrong and only you are right. I'm so sorry. I'm not a boot licker. my tongue is used to taste food, not to lick your boots!!

Things and 'news' can go on spreading, true and false be it. Sooner or later, the truth will come to light. I don't need anyone to know or recognise the hard work or effort or commitment one puts in. Just know in the heart and appreciate will do. Yet some people just don't even know how to say two simple words - THANK YOU. how unappreciative. It's okay.. just tolerate.. till the time is ripe... the fruit will grow and it'll drop and grow else where!

I believe I can, I will and I MUST!

This is so true!!! (for me)

STORY BEHIND YOUR DATE OF BIRTH

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1....

If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2...

If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3...

If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4...

If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5...

If U were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then U r number 6...

If U were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then U r number 7...

If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8...

If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9...

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Number 1

You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, Jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities, Famous person...always want to be and regarded as first on people Position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under Others, self confident people! You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get Marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views And you are most likely to take revenge over your Enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.. If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from! ! the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and Well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard To bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some People too.... Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & Wonderful children... You are pioneer, independent & original...

Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

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Number 2

No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the Moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. You are a person who day dream a lot, You have very low-self confidence, you n! ! eed back up for every move in your life, you Are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, Kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication. Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect Changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home). If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can Feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your Words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge You can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, any Artistic business people! You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get Marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole! ! Family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or Vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of Your family...You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power Behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!

Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!

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Number 3

You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, Loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems Within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always You have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth a! ! lways wanted to work hard in order To achieve something.. You will not get Anything without hard work! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger Once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone's attitud! e then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others. Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won't be long.. You will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it's over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men).. And number 3s you will be such an example o! ! f how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow. You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!

Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!

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Number 4

You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in import ant matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time aft! ! er girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don't know what to do... So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!! Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing... but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs. But you will take care of your family very well...All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too.. You are radical, patient, persistent, a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order...

Your best ! ! Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!

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Number 5

You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just chatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks 'lets do this'. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humor ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, ! ! be careful! You tend to go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times 'coz your popularity.. You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it's your best teacher!!!

Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!

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Number 6

Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don't care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are lovable by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are ! a caring person towards your family & friends . If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer! ! physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further...

Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5!!!

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Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most import antly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above. You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime. It's probably the Lord given you al! l sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about ! ! to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok? You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!

Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!

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Number 8

You are a very strong personality, there's no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say 'this is what'. You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others. Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problem! ! s such as : the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents. You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!

Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!

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Number 9

Hey...you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally... You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what you have done, it's always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you.. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you. Your family life is very good, b! ! ut will have worries over your children.. Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice. You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.

Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

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This is so so true for me!!! As in the descriptions! about match, well I don't know. hahah.. but it seems like the people are there, maybe not mine... =)

MADAGASCAR 2 - ESCAPE 2 AFRICA

It WAS a shitty day but MADAGASCAR 2 brightened up my day especially catching it with TF, kx and his gf whom i forgot to ask for her name. LOL!

I need to reflect upon.. 0n what i want exactly.. GAstric haven't been good for more than 2 months. I really need to go for scope.. hopefully by early december, which will be around next week.. hai.. TF heard that?!?! LOL!!! i know you're reading this! LOL!

libidido..

okay. i'm here to talk about how much i've lost. I've lost more than 10kg over 2 months - due to my damned gastric problems. Some say it's good, but I say it's bad because I lost weight due to sickness!! =/ But physically I really lost alot, to the extend I have colleague who thought I was pregnant and went to ask Angeline "eh Emmeline give birth already is it?" I was like WTF?!?!?!? can't be that bad bah?!! LOL!! but anyway, I've really become so much slimmer, slimmer than before I became fatter. LOL! I could even wear my working skirts size L!! LOL! back then was L(but very tight) so XL was comfy. Now the L is comfy! LOL!! blah blah blah.. But like what horsie said, physically look good but mentally and health not good also not good. LOL!! ya man.. I have to maintain, or be better!!

I'm so damn sad!!! I lost my stack of passport photos which includes photos of TF, buddee and my family!!! =( Hopefully someone will return, though I do not have addresss written but photo says it. And I've made a report to Comfort thinking I could have dropped it in the cab when I went home after visiting 24hrs clinic on last Friday night. That damned 24hrs clinic cost me $60 before mecdication and $81 after medication!!! goodness!!! ='(

There were nights when the wind was so cold

That my body froze in bed

If I just listened to it

Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel

That all the tears turned to dust

And I just knew my eyes were

Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left

And I can't remember where or when or how

And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this

And you hold me like thatI just have to admit

That it's all coming back to me

When I touch you like this

And I hold you like that

It's so hard to believe but

It's all coming back to me

(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold

And there were flashes of light

There were things I'd never do again

But then they'd always seemed right

There were nights of endless pleasure

It was more than any laws allow

Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this

And if you whisper like that

It was lost long ago

But it's all coming back to me

If you want me like this

And if you need me like that

It was dead long ago

But it's all coming back to me

It's so hard to resist

And it's all coming back to me

I can barely recall

But it's all coming back to me now

But it's all coming back

There were those empty threats and hollow lies

And whenever you tried to hurt me

I just hurt you even worse

And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days

When alone at last we'd count up all the chances

That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door

And I made myself so strong again somehow

And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this

And if you kiss me like that

It was so long ago

But it's all coming back to me

If you touch me like this

And if I kiss you like that

It was gone with the wind

But it's all coming back to me

(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold

And there were flashes of light

There were things we'd never do again

But then they'd always seemed right

There were nights of endless pleasure

It was more than all your laws allow

Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this

And when you hold me like that

It was gone with the wind

But it's all coming back to me

When you see me like this

And when I see you like that

Then we see what we want to see

All coming back to me

The flesh and the fantasies

All coming back to me

I can barely recall

But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this

If I forgive you all that

We forgive and forget

And it's all coming back to me

When you see me like this

And when I see you like that

We see just what we want to see

All coming back to me

The flesh and the fantasies

All coming back to me

I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now

tolerance

i think god is testing my level of tolerance, to give me that woman to tolerate with. dammit. she's damn unprofessional - to hang up on me and to draw lines and to malign me! that's the thing i hate most! shit man. At least i know im good. better off than her.

people just got no eyes to see. just because im young for my age, they deem im not good enough for an advancement. I'm fine with it. because i never wanted an advancement, though it was my manager's decision. But at least I know that people do not see the staff's capability and ability but it whether they like you or not. Sorry I'm not a boot licker nor someone who knows how to curry favour, thus, I lose out here. But at least I'm true. Not like that who are hypocrites and double faced. disgusting!!


Being bullied at work is not a good thing to tolerate but my tolerance level is higher than what they expect. I may cry but I'll still tolerate. wait till the day comes and the truth will come to light. Don't play a fool!! I may be small and weak on the inside but I'm strong on the outside!!

unexpected...

Life is so unexpected...

A cousin of mine, who is just one year older than me, is diagnosed with throat cancer 2nd stage. My gosh. I was so shocked to know that..

People are leaving, one by one. It's so scary at times to think of that. How it feels when you know you're about to die? Gosh. I tried asking myself. I can't answer...

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I wonder.. Should I wait or should I not. I'm really useless and stupid and foolish...

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My decision is made and told. I shall stick to my decision. Time to look for another one...

you sang to me..

all the while you were in front of me I never realized.

You Sang to me..

It was kinda 'history repeating' feeling when whb told me that buddee thought I'm angry with him. -.-" I was like 'again?!' *sigh* Anyway I've talked to buddee about this. I'd never be angry with him. It'll only be upset - especially when he keeps thinking I'm angry with him when I'm totally not! Whatever.... Anyways I give my blessgins to them. One my buddee, one my junior my girl. FuSheng and HuiBing. =)

anyway, i've made my decision, and am quite sticking to it no matter what, unless the major change is really taking place then maybe i'll reconsider. haha.

Another history repeating. haha.. but sometimes people just think too highly of themselves already la. No one is indispensable. even the president can be replaced. whats more other people? It's just another stupid childish game you're playing that someone else have played before. dumb.. wake up boy.. you're still not grown up..

Anyway.. I feel that mantally straining is more than the physical tiredness. It's true.. you cant even absorb, cant even think. thats what i'm going through nowadays..

can someone please give me some anti-stress pills? or just make me meet my laughter biscuit at least once a week i think it should be fine..=X i miss that laughter biscuit man. =(

i have to sleep now before my eyes become even worse! ='(

gosh.. its nothing happy all these whiles. =(

17th October 2008 (Friday)

On 17th October 2008(Friday), my beloved grandmother left us all to reunite with her husband in the other world, after 13years.

The first time, I come in contact with a dead body. She's so cold. Motionless. The thought of it just makes me tear. I held her hand, but I didn't feel her grip. I looked at her, talked to her, but she didn't respond to me. Before she's being pushed off for coroner's check, I gave her a kiss on her forehead and said 'byebye', like I always do when I bid her goodbye in the Hospital. Until now, I just cannot believe she have left us, totally. I really miss her..

I felt regretful, for I actually had the chance to see her for the last time, but due to some reasons, I delayed the time I had to go to the hospital, and by the time i reached the Hospital, I was 10 minutes late to see her for the last time...

Time is really precious. Even one second can make a difference. Moreover it's 10 minutes.

Her funeral/wake is over. Last day on Tuesday, the critical day. The day we would totally not see her anymore. The feeling - indescribable. Even when burning the incense papers, I know she's still physically around and I still talked to her, looked at her. Changing her water for washing up every morning. Making sure the joss sticks doesn't burn out and what so ever. I tried to be strong but at times I really could not control. I wasn't even prepared to be praying at her. The thought of it, really feels like a sharp needle piercing through my heart. Though I wasn't close to her before she had stroke, but during her time when she was bed ridden after she was down with stroke, I did my part to take care of her. Getting to know more about her medical condition so that when help is needed, I can do my part. Keeping her happy, visiting her frequently especially when she's in the Hospital, to the extend, some nurses and other visitors thought she was my mother as seldom would people see grandchildren visiting their grandparents alone and late at night, looking after her and accompanying her. Now I want to do more is also too late. Cremation was the most difficult part, for I know, I'll never get to see her again, not physically. The part when I see her coffin being pushed in for cremataion by an automated machine, the feeling was like - I know she's leaving us totally, and that I'll never get to see her again. That was the part that hurt the most......

I wanna thank all my friends, colleagues, relatives who helped contributed. 有心了。And also friends who were there for me and helped me in any way especially Jessie, Angeline, ChinLik, Ryan, Derick, Salim, buddee FuSheng, TF and Allisson. 大家有心了。

I extended my leave for the whole week for certain things had happened and I do not wish to say it here. However, I just would like to take a break from everything.. I took a walk in Pasir Ris Park - Alone. Enjoying the breeze and looking at happy families and couples together... So envious...

Another 2 days and I have to be back to work. Time flies.. Unbeliveable. But this is reality. She's gone for exactly one week as of today..I even faced diffuculty typing this entry as I don't know how to describe the feelings and I'm still crying at the same time. I really miss her...

"Ma ma, I miss you a lot. Hope you are well and okay and have reunited with Ye Ye. Be happy and bless the family with your love. You are free from your suffering and hope you are enjoying life with Ye Ye now. Take Care..."

update of my life..

it's time to update a little on my life..

It has been really much better in my heaven.. I really can't remember when was the last time i felt like this already.

So relaxed, so carefree, worry-less..

I laugh any way I liked.

Laughed out all the way.

Party like no one cares.

Have fun like the world is mine..

~But..i kinda miss them. =X *sighs* ~

I'm reading a book called 'Happiness in a Nutshell' and one of the pages says this...

Life goes like this...

We get hit by little pebbles - as a kind of warning.

When we ignore the pebbles, we get hit by a brick.

Ignore the brick and we get wiped out by a boulder.

If we are honest, we can see where we have ignored the warning signs.

And then we have the nerve to say:"Why me?!"

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Loving people means giving then the freedom to be who they choose to be and where they choose to be.

Love is allowing people to be in your life out of choice.

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To find, you have to seek.

If you have lost your life direction, you probably won't find it between drinks at the local bar.

Give yourself a break, give yourself some time and space to examine what counts for you.

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Makes sense doesn't it? Beautiful isn't it? =)

Sometimes I'm still quite confused. I don't know what exactly I want. Now that I'm in heaven, I feel something missing. I liked the happiness I'm having. I have the freedom, carefree-ness, partiful life. Quite a few people had contributed to these. Jessie and friends, Jiabao and friends, TF, Angeline&Xavier, FuSheng and Friends, Ryan, Derick, My Aunt Joanne and family.. I don't know how am I suppose to thank them for helping me. Certain things might have happened, but I've got through it. and I felt happier. To know the truth and also to know I'm more important and known. I've made changes to myself during this time. I've become more daring, in terms of dressing myself up and being the pretty me. I've put on make up, to look younger, to hide my panda eyes and to look prettier. I've become more focused. I've slowly learned to let go. I've got through quite a few things.. I've become a better person..

Coming Saturday is buddee FuSheng's BirthDATE! =) I'm so looking forward to it. and I've managed to arrange something out with my manager so that I can have both sides of the world. hahah. For my buddee.. =) I'll definitely be there..

Also, TF's day also coming. When it comes to our birthdays, it always makes me laugh because we owe each other 3 years of presents. LOL! and we know what it is. hahaha.. =) TF! I'm still waiting!!!!! I was chatting with him some time ago and some things he told me, really touched me a lot. The extra mile he did for me. The times he was there for me. No words could describe the thankfulness I have for him. The one who never fails to bring the smile on me. The one who was always there for me. 3 years.. I'll never forget what he said. Friendship don't count by the number of years, it counts by the heart. =) It's our hearts that counts. =)

Loves,

Emmeline

miracle....

I went to visit my miracle doctor on Thursday.. at Ang Mo Kio.. It was like 10 years ago since i last visited that clinic. LOL it's my childhood doctor. hahah.. hey do not have my records anymore when I went there. LOL! 10 years already man! LOL! BUT!!! the receptionist and the Doctor still can remember me!!!! LOL!!! OMG that goes to shoe that my features really never change. LOL!!! well, miracle doctor gave me medication which was really miracle. She told me to take the medication first den go and eat normal food but of course not too large a portion la. and i did so. MIRACULOUSLY i did not vomit!!! but... i tried a few times not taking the medication and went to eat, and i vomitted. I do not want to rely on the medication. But it seems like i have to have my medication before i have my meal otherwise i will vomit. goodness gracious.. so damn sad... =(

Been hearing many people's experience with gastric and going for scope and people asking me to go for scope.. which i'm so afraid of.. =( Should i go for scope?? =S hai.. i'm really scared!!!! =X oh gosh....

bad bad bad...

It's horrible.. My gastric is giving me problems for close to a month already! and it got worst! I vomitted my dinner on Wednesday night and took a long time to decide to go to the doctor on thursday morning. Doctor diagnosed Gastric Flu.. -.-" gave me medication but didn't work. because i vomit my lunch after taking my medicine. -.-" den night time after dinner took medicine still felt nauseating.

Friday morning went to work, had very light breakfast still vomitted again. Had light lunch still vomitted. went back to doctor after lunch and doctor tells me ' you have to go on clear fluids now. just like on drips. you can even forget abotu porridge or noodles already. just plain clear fluids' and she gave me a list of drinks that i can only take which out of it mostly i dont like except for water. So i was still a smart alec on friday night to still pinch on some food which i still vomitted after eating and i gave up!

I didn't eat anything on saturday and sunday. well, actually i was too hungry on sunday so i took a white bread bit by bit. was okay.

Today i thought since i didnt eat for 2 days and yester i took bread was okay, i thought i can eat. Had fish soup and vomitted again after that. hai... i gave up..

i guess i need to 'fast', totally FAST another few days. omg.. i'm like so so so hungry la!!! =(

If i still don't get well, i'll need to go back to the doctor and she'll have to recommend me to go for scope. OH MY GOD!! i'd never want that!!! ='( how to get well?? sigh... why don't just let me go hospital! -.-"

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back track a little to Saturday...

My cute miss dearest warmest cousin Jiabao. Somehow 'arranged' a 'match-making' session date for me. -.-" Well not exactly though. This guy by the name of Stanley, is actually Lucas's friend. We went out all together a few times. First time was like 2 CNY ago. LOL!! I'll never forget that night because this guy gave me a shock. further details shall not be disclosed here. hahah. anyway she made us go out together, just two of us, for a movie at TM. we watched Eagle Eyes. Well, he's quite a nice guy, but also a very shy one. haha =X well. i'm also a little though. cos don't really talk much also. The whole thing was very funny la. After movie went to cheers to get my wonder drink 100plus to quench my thirst and hunger and energy. and jiabao and lucas came to meet us outside cheers. The most wonderful thing i came to find otu was - Jiabao and Lucas was actualyl just sitting DIRECTLY BEHIND US IN THE CINEMA!!! -.-" goodness gracious. what a nice wonderful cousin she is right? =) -.-" but still i enjoyed myself la.. and of course will look forward to more. =X heehee....

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Yesterday night went to my Aunt's house to celebrate my Grandmother's 70th Birthday, Mother's side. blah blah blah.. den went to meet up with buddee Fusheng and friends. =) had a nice chat with them la. like gathering. My buddee's birthday is coming.. 18th oct.. after that will be TF's.. haha.. thinking about birthday for TF and me will be so funny. only we know what's going on. RIGHT TF?!?!?! ahaha... whatever nonsense you're gonna say again.... my neck is getting long!!! beware i may die anytime so stop keeping me waiting.. thank you ! haha....~

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classically, randomly

Randomly, i just want to post this two photos i saw and burst out laughing freaking like mad. LOL!

Introducing my good boy models(from left):

WoonKiat, SongGuan,RoyChua,FaiSal,SamSon,SteVen

I can't remember how freaking long ago is this man - Faisal was still Orange and Sammy boy still around!!! LOL! have fun laughing!!! =D

And some time ago..

The first official staff party. =) in 2007
I'm not an alcoholic, just auctioned one bottle of chivas for my crew. =) - for the fun of it..

another day with aunt joanne and evan. =)

no much words, just pictures will do the talking for me. =)

Aunt Joanne, My Evan and me =).

another fun-filled day. Going to the arcade to play once in a while is good. it brings laughter, fun and helps to relieve stress. I did.. =)

Happy BirthDATE to the Most Un-Identical TWINS for the lifetime! =)

alright.. i'm here to blog about my first courageous visit to ZOUK on Wednesday 24th September 2008 ( Wednesday) which is also MAMBO NIGHT! it was all along my wish to go ZOUK to see their MAMBO JAMBO NIGHT but everytime i had a chance to go, my gut feeling always pull me down - telling me if i go, something bad will happen to me. For I don't know what reason, this time i plucked up my courage to go. Sounds weird but ya it is.

Zouk was GREAT! I totally enjoyed myself, or rather, WE totally enjoyed OURSELVES!! =D It was the YIPS @ ZOUK! LOL! Jiabao, Carmen, Daniel and Emmo! the cousins! LOL!! We had joy, we had fun, we had everything within the lights and music!! Everyone was dancing to the Mambo steps and none of us know the steps here! So, we did all kinds of nonsense, creating our own stupid steps and carmen teaching us her signature hamster dance! LOL! we all moooooved to the music and groooved together! haha.. it was totalyl hilarious. especially when we were thinking what steps to move and stuffs like that, all kinda of nonsense came out. LOL! The steps we had were literally the lyrics, more cock than mambo steps. LOL!!!! But nevertheless, we enjoyed ourselves totally! It was the first time we all go clubbing together, my first time, and also Daniel's first time! I couldn't believe all of us was so spontaneous! LOL! we danced together! LOL!

Reason partly for going - it's the incredibly Un-identical Twins Birthday!! on the 25th sept.. hahhaa...

Carmen & emmo! =D

emmo & jiabao! =D

emmo & daniel! =D
the YIPS @ ZOUK! emmo & Carmen outside ZOUK =)
The YIPS Outside of ZOUK
In da zouk...
The most classic one. hahah

After zouk, Jiabao and I was supposed to go Sun Tanning the next morning but... she couldn't wake up. LOL!!! so we went to ehub! for movie and fun! =D First it was MAMMA-MIA! woots! this movie is just WONDERFULLLL!!! I guess the couple beside us must be annoyed because we were singing along almost ALL the songs!! we really enjoyed it! =D haha. like our concert. LOL! ABBA is my all-time favorite man. LOL!

After MAMMA-MIA, i brought her to GO!GO!BALL! game! LOL! we had fun man! hahaha.. throwing balls all over again. LOL the next best way to vent your frustrations and anger on, beside hitting someone. LOL! After games, it's photos time!!!

Then i realised I wrote the wrong chinese word! it was supposed to be PIG not HUNT. LOL!



THAT'S ALL FOLKS.....!! =D

a whole new world..

it's a new heaven to be in. I can't remember when was the last time i felt so comfortable already. =)



Hopefully, like what Jessie says, not to turn back anymore. hahaha


just some pics to update. been meeting up with jiabao recently and we went to somewhere, den went to DTE (-.-") outside my office to relac, chat and hug. hahhaha!!! =X really. we hugged. LOL! i remembered the first time i hugged her was when she had some trouble and she was crying - first time i see her cry till like that and the moment she saw me, she immediately came forward and hugged me. haha.. This time it was the opposite. She returned me that hug. only thing i didn't go up to her and cry and hug her, cos we were just sitting beside each other. We were chatting about stuffs and i started to cry - she gave me the warmest, dearest hug i've ever gotten... =)

In my office. =)

Outside my office..




I guess it's true what people say - that my photos are all cut and paste. LOOK AT MY ALL THE SAME SMILES!!!! LOL! like my trademark. haha.. someone ever said i looked like those yellow faced smile with the teeth =D -.-" LOL!

THATS ALL FOLKS...!!

ironic

the start of a new day..

a new life? hopefully.........

He told me - Let nature take its course. Whatever you decide to do, just go ahead and do.

5 weeks later, come back to visit me..

5 weeks later, I'll go back to visit you.

the decision

I've decided.

I know I will be happier.

I will be.

fun, aches and love. =)

woo.. i did not meet the horsie yesterday cos last minute he couldn't make it. =( anyway i had my fun-filled Wednesday when my Aunt Joanne came to DTE to find me. =D

We went for lunch, den went to arcade and played our hearts out! even took photo stickers!! =D haha. it's so cute la! LOL! played the go!go! ball and threw the balls everywhere, LOL! played those ticketed machines and win tickets to change things for her two rascals. heehee. and she caught me a Tweety Bird! =D wootS!!! It's been so long since I felt so happy.. After that, we went to watch movie. It was my first movie with her as well. Watched Wall-E. heehee. it's sooooo cute.. =)

I know after looking at the photos, the whole world will tell me ' you sure she's your auntie?!?!?!' LOL! -.-"

The silliest photo of mine.. with the tweety bird she caught. =)

RANDOMLY...

I look so much younger right? =D the power of light make up. LOL!