starts with goodbye

so many advices given to me..

i need to be more cruel sometimes.. is it true?

i need to think of myself before thinking for others.. is it true?

i need to make sure i can live for myself before helping others.. is it true?

i need to give up on them.. but can i do it?


it is really frustrating on these issues.. over and over again. I'm not sympathizing myself. but i know what I'm going through now, is not what a 19year old girl should go through. yet time and time again i repeat these "mistakes". its not a real mistake but its just a wrong move i made to make myself suffer like this. I'm really tired of all these.. it will be a matter of time for me to decide for the worst, to move out and walk out of this matter..

"please be with me. it hurts to feel like strangers.."