unexpected...

Life is so unexpected...

A cousin of mine, who is just one year older than me, is diagnosed with throat cancer 2nd stage. My gosh. I was so shocked to know that..

People are leaving, one by one. It's so scary at times to think of that. How it feels when you know you're about to die? Gosh. I tried asking myself. I can't answer...

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I wonder.. Should I wait or should I not. I'm really useless and stupid and foolish...

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My decision is made and told. I shall stick to my decision. Time to look for another one...